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2015_03_16 Stretched


As I’m sure you’ve noticed by now, the writing around here has become a bit scarce. Even Twitter and Facebook have gone virtually silent. It is scarce because I can’t find the words to say what I think I should say and I fight saying the words that the Spirit prompts me to say. This business, this ministry, has reached a point where growth is no longer avoidable, progress will not be denied.  My heart bleeds in that growth, my eyes pour tears mixed with more emotions than I would even dare try to name.

Why? Because it stretches me not just past my comfort one, but into unchartered waters in my beliefs. While embracing the Hebrew roots of the Faith is new to me…the core of my beliefs is not. I am honestly simply learning how to apply all that I have always felt in my life, how to live it out loud. And one of those beliefs is in the covered woman. Woman was created from a covered place and, I believe, was never intended to be uncovered in the earth. Girls went from their fathers to their husbands. Then if anything went wrong they either went back to their fathers or were covered by the church. But I see very little of that being lived any more…even less among the Christians I see.

What is this covering? In the simplest of terms, a C/covering provides, protects, and strengthens. The C/covering is the H/head of household, the O/one who makes the final decisions, the spiritual leader, the O/one responsible for what takes place with those under H/his roof. {see Genesis 18:19, 1 Timothy 3, and 1 Corinthians 11:1-16 for a starting point}. In the earth He is that buffer between her always open womb, her always open place of giving and nurturing, her always open garden, and the world. An uncovered woman in common society is usually presented with two choices: be consumed or step into that place of a man and callous, or close, herself.

Well there is a third choice. It is not openly taught or widely preached. I have only heard it come of out the pulpit in broken pieces, honestly with no backbone or force attached to it. But it is a choice…and for me it is THE choice. That is to leave the man’s slot open, acknowledging it as unfilled, and accept Yeshua as my direct Covering. It has provided for me the honor of being a stay-at-home mom with Him as the Head of my household. It has graced me with provision untold and protected me from the dangers in the spiritual realm. It has blessed my household more than I could ever express, but there is something that Covering does lack…not for me…not in Himself…but in the world. That Covering, while more powerful than any man could ever be, is less respected than a physical man standing there as a barrier. Sad, but true. {Don’t believe me…next time someone tries to pick you up say, “I belong to Jesus” and see what happens…it excites them. But then find the biggest man in the room and say, “I’m with him” and watch them run.} For me, this phenomenon is even worse when it comes to Theology, especially given my stance on things.

It is painful for me to step out of my surrendered place, to be aggressive {note this is different from assertive}, to be closed off, even if to protect that which is precious to Him! It is so difficult for me to enforce those rules and boundaries, especially when I find myself in a position to overrule or “check” a grown man. So I wrap myself in my little cocoon and pray for an earthly covering, hoping that covering will get to my life in whatever form before I am called to step forward with my anointing. That is not the way that prayer got answered!

“Give to me all that you’ve tried to give to men”

That’s what He said to me that day. I had no idea, and I’m sure I still don’t, what all that meant, but I’m learning. I do, however, know that I have on numerous occasions trusted a man to keep me safe, I have believed that a man could and would protect me, I have been bold because I knew a man would back me up. I know I gave those things to a man…and now I am giving them to Him. With tears in my eyes and pain in my heart, I am daring to stretch beyond my comprehension, to grow far beyond what I can see…knowing and believing that He is going ultimately make this a glorious experience and it will all work out for my good!

What does any of that have to do with this blog, business, and ministry? Well, I’m stepping it up a notch…or two…or three. I’m reclaiming the rights and the place of women in the Kingdom and boldly proclaiming that they apply to single women as well! And yeeeesssss, I will scream to the hilltop the theology to back it up. In other words, it’s going to get a bit controversial around here. That’s not to say the random muffin recipe won’t make into the lineup, but there will be more purpose driven posts. Some of the favorite categories will poke there head in as well, but I will be leaning on the Spirit to lead in their content and frequency. I may not be ready inside for what’s ahead, but I’m certain that He is…and for Him, by Him, and through Him I am going to step into obedience. I’m going to step out on faith and assurance and do what I’ve been called to do.

So as I head into this Rosh Chodesh Ziv {Iyar}, I will be praying and embracing what all of this means. And tomorrow I will rest and give way to the refreshing that comes with new beginnings. Friday I will clean and prepare to celebrate with Him on His day of Rest…and Shabbat, oh sweet Shabbat, I will rest in His Presence and feed on His Truth. Sunday I will be back to continue with Reaching for Success and then….well I pray I’ll see you Monday for that! Have a great week and a blessed weekend beloved…and thank you for your patience and for listening. I pray you the Peace that transcends all understanding {Philippians 4:7}! Shalom!~

Surrendered to Him~


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  1. Mariah
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    I am so excited to see what is ahead for you! It has been amazing to read your words and see your growth that he has already done in your life. You love The Lord with all your heart and all your mind and I am inspired daily with that!

    • ~blckrose~
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      Thank you Mariah! Your words have truly brought me comfort and joy! I’m excited myself! The ideas are already flowing free!~

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