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2014_03_24 Surrender

Along my many journeys in life I have learned that words, ideas, and dreams aren’t worth much without the action to back them up. I spent a great deal of my life in that space…full of words, ideas, and dreams but not really doing anything with them. My spiritual life was no different. I grew up in church. I believed in the Trinity and had confessed that Jesus died for me and was buried and on the third day He rose again, that He ascended into Heaven and is sitting at the right hand of the Father interceding on my behalf. I accepted Him as my Lord and Savior, but nothing in my life reflected that…except the fact that I was still alive. In James 2:26 the Word says, “As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.” And that’s what my spiritual life was too…dead!

On October 16, 2011, all of that changed. I was graced with a new type of salvation…one that touched my heart and convicted my soul. This time my salvation came with commitment, with passion, with longing to know Him and be close to Him, and, most importantly, it came with Ruach HaKodesh {the Holy Spirit}! It honestly felt like that moment was my last chance to get it right…my last chance to turn it all around. It was now or never and there was no turning back either way. I can honestly say it was the best decision I have ever made and I have no desire whatsoever to go back.

After a while I began to wonder what made this time so different, why were so many blessings flooding in this time. I had repented and reconciled myself to Him before but nothing like what I have experienced this time ever happened. Then I read Acts 26:20 where it says, “…I preached that they should repent and turn to God and prove their repentance by their deeds.” It was the fact that this time I backed my words up with my deeds that made the difference in my relationship with Him. Not that my deeds are the reason I’m saved {Yeshua did that on the cross and Grace has covered me ever since}, but my deeds showed that I really meant what I said and opened the door inviting Him in deeper to mold and shape me and my life.

The more I did, the more I realized that I could do nothing without Him…that I had never done anything without Him. I wanted more…no, I needed more. Verses like Psalm 63:1, Psalm 42:1-2, and many others became fuel to my fire. Submission, a trait I had always possessed, was no longer enough. I wanted no more control, no more identity, no more independence…I simply wanted, needed to be His. If I was never anything else in life…it was enough for me to know that I am His! Thus began my Journey to Surrender.

This year is a bit different though, there is even more on the path for me. This year my surrender deepens into my mind, into my thoughts, into my beliefs…it is time for the deeper things to be touched and changed by the Potter’s hands. This year I surrender my all! I invite Him to shape and mold my thoughts into what He desires them to be…to give me the mind of Yeshua {1 Corinthians 2:16}…to make my thoughts His thoughts. I invite Him to take charge of my mouth and command me in what to say and how to say it {John 12:49}. I invite Him to show me how to behave that I may do as He does {John 5:19}. This year I seek to learn to think, act, and speak only as He teaches me to so that I may always do what pleases Him {John 8:28,29}. This year I surrender the whole of my will to Him and invite Him to use me as He pleases! The old is gone and the new has come {2 Corinthians 5:17}…and I AM HIS!!!

Surrendered to Him~

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