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2015_05_11 Way


One of my devotionals has me taking a journey through 2 Chronicles 34 and it has sparked quite the array of emotions for me. It is as if I’m reading the story of my own journey.

This all started for me a little over a year ago with the purging of idols. I knew that in order for me to break free, really free, from the bondage of my old life I was going to have to get rid of all traces of it. Anything that served as a link to where I no longer wanted to be was disposed of or donated. Truthfully, this process continues on today. As I grow I realize there are more and more things that need to go.

I realized what disrepair my temple, my body, was in and set out to repair it. But I missed a critical step the first time. I didn’t work faithfully at it {v.12}. Baruch HaShem {Blessed be the Name} for His Grace! He’s given me something stronger to stand on, to lean on, this time…Him! So this time I’ve added faithfulness to the recipe for success and the payoff is already great! But that’s a topic for another day.

Today I am captivated by what the workers found when they were cleaning and repairing the temple. They found the same thing I found while working on my temple, the Book of the Law! {v.14-15} I remember digging through Old and New Testaments, flipping back and forth, referencing this with that. I remember the emotions flooding in with intensity: anger, amazement, joy, fear, sorrow.

Why have I never heard of this? Why was I never taught this? Those were the questions that flooded my mind and fueled my fear and sorrow most of all. Not the kind of earthly fear that the Word repeatedly reminds us to cast off, but that reverential fear reserved only for Him. It filled me just as it had when I walked to the altar that Sunday, and with it came sorrow, grief, and remorse. I knew instantly that this was the piece I’d been missing, the piece I’d been trying to replace with all those idols all those years.

I didn’t tear my robes that day {v. 19}, but the realization tore my spirit. It tore my vision, the way I saw the world, the way I saw the church, the way I saw myself. It resonated deep within and shook me to my very core. I felt a version of verse 21 come alive within me.

“Go and inquire of the Lord for me and for the remnant in Israel and Judah about what is written in this book that has been found. Great is the Lord’s anger that is poured out on us because those who have gone before us have not kept the word of the Lord; they have not acted in accordance with all that is written in this book.”

Like Josiah, my first committed act after reading all the Law was to celebrate Pesach {2 Chronicles 35:1-19}. It was not nearly as grand as his, but I did it with all my heart and it rained blessings down on my house. I found a bit of understanding as to how the concept of that “once saved, always saved” line that is so often misquoted and wrongly used may have originated. I saw the idea in the light of Hebrews 6:4-6. There are some places, some revelations, some truths, that once you truly know them, once they have taken root in your spirit {Mark 4:20}, they are always a part of you, making walking away exponentially more difficult with each step you take closer to Him.

Am I saying that you can get so holy that you can’t fall? Absolutely not!!! As you come out from the world, however, as you move farther away from the dominion of the evil one. As you build your city walls with obedience to and fellowship in God’s Word, your position changes…where you land changes. When you live 2 feet from the world of sin and you fall 3 feet, you land a whole foot inside the world of sin. You then have to battle its hold, its temptations, its extra burdens to stand back up and make you way back to the Throne. But when you live 10 feet from the world of sin and fall 3 feet, the only sin you have to battle it the one you committed.

That is what the Law in its entirety gives me….a buffer, a moat, a constant reminder. It reminds me that I am called to be set apart. It reminds me that I’m not supposed to look like the world. It reminds me that He loves me so much that He laid out all these protections to show me how to love Him back, how to love my brothers and sisters, and how to be an accurate reflection of His Kingdom. So I embrace it fully, with the Grace that Yeshua brought into the New Covenant and the Holy Spirit He gave to guide me, falling more and more in love with Him through every step as I journey into the Way.~

Surrendered to Him~


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