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2013_12_15 Growth

Not too long ago we talked about boundaries and how you need to have clear goals so you know where you’re headed. I also mentioned that there are times where those boundaries need to be adjusted as you grow. It is in these times where growth and change is needed that conflicts arise, or at least what appears to be a conflict arise. I had one of these appearances rear its head in my life recently that truly effected my walk with Him. Even though it was only a short amount of time, the effects were wide spread over my life and drastic enough to drive me to action. Today I’d like to share that with you in the hopes that my experience may shed light on something that may be challenging you.

My first priority is Elohim…my relationship with Him, His Will in my life, etc. Many of the ways I fellowship with Him however involves others…bibles study groups, book study groups, etc. In addition, people are a part of my calling as a counselor, nurturer, encourager, and teacher. So in pursuit of Him, I run across situations that ignite my calling. I have also made friends through these fellowships. So the line between studying {time with Him}, counseling {my calling}, and friendship {personal} tend to get blurred from time to time.

The catch to this is that some of these are on the opposite ends of the spectrum when it comes to my list of priorities and having them lumped together tends to squeeze out the middle ground, reducing it to receiving the bare minimum of my time and energy. In addition, most of those I fellowship with are adherent to more mainstream Christianity, meaning they don’t keep Shabbat or the Feasts of the Old Testament. This means that a lot of what is Holy to me, isn’t to them or at least not in the same way.

Well as I studied through Luke 11 last week with my Good Morning Girls group, I was hit with some of the deepest convictions I have ever felt in my life! At one point the Spirit fell upon me so heavy and so fast that it was all I could do to type out a prayer request to some dear sisters of mine. The result of that was {this post}. The most convicting aspect of that study for me though was Luke 11:33-36. I can’t have private worship and devotion and just expect it to be automatically understood publicly. I can’t hide the light of my bond with Him through the Old Testament and the Hebrew roots of the Way under a bowl and expect others to see it!

In Luke 11:17 Yeshua says, “Any kingdom divided against itself will be ruined, and a house divided against itself will fall.” Well, my house has been divided against itself and that is part of the reason for my falls here lately. I will admit, when I started this journey I didn’t want to talk about it. I had no idea where it was going to lead and I didn’t want to face the questions and scrutiny of being a “keeper of the law” while I figured things out.

Well, it is clear at this point that this is not a temporary journey or an exercise in theology. This is the path He intends me to walk for as far into the future as I can see. It has reached the point where not only my daily life, but my words and boundaries need to reflect that fact as well. So that is my goal for this week, God Willing…to illuminate my beliefs and my walk in all areas of my life, my business, and everything in between. As the Spirit leads, I will also be sharing more about my adventures in this journey here on the blog. This reality is a deeper process of transformation than I ever thought it could or would be, but it has blessed me every step of the way.

To any of you who find yourself in a boundary conflict of any kind, I urge you to stop right where you are. Step away from everything that you can, unplug from the world, and seek His guidance. You may have to do this several times over a span of time to get a clear answer. I first felt this conflict around the middle of Adar {end of February}. The Father has no conflicting aspects or qualities so it is only through Him that we can root out those causes of conflict within us planted by the evil one, typically through the ways of the world. But be open and be prepared, because many of our conflicts are rooted in fear and that fear must be faced and conquered for the conflict to be resolved.

I pray you courage and boldness on your journey beloved! Shalom!~

Surrendered to Him~

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